man i'm really upset, ya know, like i just don't know anymore, i'm having so many mixed emotions, i got my girl on one side, telling me baby do what's right, then i got my niggas who ready to take off, i'm ready to take off, but at the same time, i think now, i think of the consequences that follows, but why the fuck should i be considerate?, them niggas wasn't considerate at all, so why should i spare their families?, but could i live with that on my conscious, nothing has power over me, nothing but my conscious thoughts, it could eat me alive, and to put my thoughts into action is the most difficult thing for me, cause then i'm being selfish, i'm not thinking about who cares for me, i'm only acting on my anger, i shouldn't punish my love ones for my own choices, but when the frustration of my helplessness seemed greatest, i discovered God's grace was more than sufficient, i could look back and see how God used my powerlessness for his purpose, i'm confront the dark parts of myself, and i work to banish them with illumination and forgiveness, my willingness to wrestle with my demons will cause my angels to sing, i'm using the pain as fuel, as a reminder of my strength, that i will overcome this obstacle, pray for better days, live and continue to grow as an individual, i'm emotional right now, i'm angry at the world, life is so fucking unfair, why i got to go through this shit man, why me?, i can only take so much man, i swear, yo i'm gone, fuck the world, i'm screaming.
