i vowed to myself, not to turn back the hands of time, she like my addiction, i need rehab, trying to dodge that high, every move i make, she's there on my mind, but what i can say, its love, the most wonderful feeling in the world, but why love, when the person you love, love someone else, that's absurd, so why allow it to get to that point again, love is blind, she don't give a fuck about me, so why keep trying, that's what i keep asking myself everyday, i try to be so strong and act so hard that it literally kills me to shed a tear, i'm ashamed, why am i so sensitive? why does everything bother me? i want to be numb of the feelings of life, i really do, i am honestly misunderstood, but i won't let myself care enough to try to rectify any problem, this person doesn't wish to talk to me, fine, i will grant your wish as painful as it is, i'm really sorry for being that person you thought i wasn't, i am so sorry that i couldn't be that person you wanted me to be, i will always be sorry for not living up to your standards because i deeply wanted to, i just didn't know how, i find solace in beating myself up, it gets me through the day, i'm tired.
